Well I am getting prepared

I had some great God time this morning , I stayed focus all day, I had a great conversation with a friend, I talk to my daughter (love that) I did a little quilting, spent some quality time with my husband,he prayed for me and more, talked to my sister: I am getting prepared to take a journey with my mom to see my brother who is very sick. Tomorrow I will visit my special ladies and make sure they are praying for me. Then I will do as much as possible at work and then I will come home and pack. I getting prepared. Really all I need is you God and my bag will be pack. I TRUST you and know you will be with me helping support my mom. Guiding me leading me showing me. My eyes will be open. Show me the way. Thank you God.

I feel much more together today

Well it is true. Today I feel together like I am actually moving. Why? That is the question. I don't know if it was yesterday not wanting to do anything I mean even getting up off the couch I had to really think about. Or was it this morning my God time. God the audience of one. His power his thoughts his spirit. Even today when someone talked about person going over my head with a decision she didn't like. I still felt okay.  I felt God's love his grace and his will. Lord Fill me up for this trip I need you.

Saturday

Well blah blah blah, cleaning the house. Not a lot happening here. I really can't get out of this blah blah mood. Another Saturday and I am doing nothing exciting. Nothing to look forward too. Swimming laps. really not something to look forward too even though my husband tries to convince me it is. Here again blah blah blah As I clean the house my blahs go away. This usually happens because I like to see the clean product of my work. I always like see what I can do. The accomplishments. However I still have that sense of what am I doing. Why am I here. I am not sure I will get that from cleaning my house. Oh I need to fold the clothes be right back. ok All done clean except the dog. Need to give her a bath today. Hair all over the house. I hate that. The evergreen triatholon was today. It is hot but still would have been fun. I feel like I will never do a tri again where has all my youth gone. We went to see a movie today, "Horrible Bosses" Funny. Also went swimming. I feel a little more centered.I am always so concerned about my feeling really.

Wow I know so wonderful ladies

I have this year pick up a bible study that is at 5:50 am Wednesday morning. This is actually the best time for me. Mornings are when I function the best have the best conversation(even though no one usually wants to have one with me) and just am the quickest mentally. I love these group of women. I mean I really love them. Not like people say oh I love....... and really mean they are neat and like being around them. I truly mean I love them, my heart is connected to them. This is mostly because they want to grow. I love that. I want to share things with these women that I wouldn't with other people. I want to share my failures and laugh and then cry. How blessed I am that I have this group. Really God you know I didn't deserve this or work for it or plan for it you just graced me. Yea Yea.......... God is like that. I also notice I am better because of them. I am more peaceful and less anxious. I am not sure why but that is true. I know why they are praying for me!!!! That gives me comfort. Go figure...I am a better wife and definitely better mother I am just better Thanks you ladies.

Servent

I am a servent A leader must be able to follow. Many are the plans in man's heart but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. Ps 19:20-21 An audience of One. What we devote our mind to Makes all the difference

Ok do I really want to blog or do I like the Idea of blogging

Truly I want to blog but then again I am not. I think of something to blog about and I think I can't write that. What the heck. Well my little adventure with changing my eating habits(dieting, losing weight) I lost wow a total of 2 lbs in 5 days. I only have about 23 left to go. It is a start. I am starting that graze  again. You know where you sit in front of the TV and think about what to eat. Maybe sitting in front of the TV isn't good. Have to think about that. Today I was out at summer camp with the kids. That actually was great fun very very hot but great fun. Kids were good, Teachers were good, life is good. Wow really. Came home early thought about quilting but didn't. I really love my job. I like this blogging it is a relief to just write. I use to just write all the time and then I thought I have to write for a reason. Then I stop. How many time have I questioned something and just stopped doing it. That is funny. Today one of my brothers and my sister called. This is very unusual for my brother to called it kind of freaked me out. That is sad. My sister and I talk quite often. I love my sister. I wish I was closer to my brother but that won't happen. When I talk to them sometimes it is like talking to Dad. I miss Dad.I am feeling like crying. Sometimes I think about him. He has been gone for more than 9 years. Wow. I still cry sometimes. It is funny how life changes. I will be soon 50 what the heck. How did that happen. Where is God in all of this all over it. Every minute of every day. He is right here. I love that he is faithful. I need to pray for my husband. I think I hurt his feeling yesterday. I said he need to read about being a good husband. I was just mad. When I told him we had to go to the Hospital because a family member was just admitted. He ask " Whose the we" That wasn't funny. Ok he just did something very nice for me so I have forgiven him.

Today is the day!!!!

How many times have I started this and just given up? Not today I am going to make this different. Today was a day I spent with God. I had the day off alone. I spent time with God. He reminded me of his grace. I love days like today when I feel him and know he is with me. I am his child. I did a little quilting, a little scrapbooking, a lot of praying and a lot of reading. I feel refreshed. Didn't I just read about the Sabbath and look at God. He gave me a Sabbath. I also did a bike ride. I love the summer and the beauty of nature. I missed running terribly but I love to bike too. I am blessed.