Ok do I really want to blog or do I like the Idea of blogging

Truly I want to blog but then again I am not. I think of something to blog about and I think I can't write that. What the heck. Well my little adventure with changing my eating habits(dieting, losing weight) I lost wow a total of 2 lbs in 5 days. I only have about 23 left to go. It is a start. I am starting that graze  again. You know where you sit in front of the TV and think about what to eat. Maybe sitting in front of the TV isn't good. Have to think about that. Today I was out at summer camp with the kids. That actually was great fun very very hot but great fun. Kids were good, Teachers were good, life is good. Wow really. Came home early thought about quilting but didn't. I really love my job. I like this blogging it is a relief to just write. I use to just write all the time and then I thought I have to write for a reason. Then I stop. How many time have I questioned something and just stopped doing it. That is funny. Today one of my brothers and my sister called. This is very unusual for my brother to called it kind of freaked me out. That is sad. My sister and I talk quite often. I love my sister. I wish I was closer to my brother but that won't happen. When I talk to them sometimes it is like talking to Dad. I miss Dad.I am feeling like crying. Sometimes I think about him. He has been gone for more than 9 years. Wow. I still cry sometimes. It is funny how life changes. I will be soon 50 what the heck. How did that happen. Where is God in all of this all over it. Every minute of every day. He is right here. I love that he is faithful. I need to pray for my husband. I think I hurt his feeling yesterday. I said he need to read about being a good husband. I was just mad. When I told him we had to go to the Hospital because a family member was just admitted. He ask " Whose the we" That wasn't funny. Ok he just did something very nice for me so I have forgiven him.