Checking out

Ok I wish I could "check out" meaning I wish I could say oh that is sad you have to do chemo. Stay strong you are so strong. I will pray for you maybe even pray with you. I would Remember every so often to text or call you but I do have my own life so good luck with that chemo thing. I know that sounds harsh but I feel that today from a lot of places. Is it natural....well yes .... no one can do this for me. I can share my feelings but I can't share the actual drug. I can't share what it will cause my body to do ....I can tell people but I can't give it to them...I got to do this alone....I feel alone today for a variety of reasons.....however God is an every present God and yes he will share this with me. He never checks out because he can handle anything....that's why people check out because they are human and they can only do so much...I can only do so much so today I am laying my future chemo at Gods feet and checking out because I too am at my limit.