Nothing Said

What do I do when an old friend doesn't say anything about the sorrow. Oh they said I am sorry for your loss but that is it. They really didn't want to talk I need to talk I am mad at them. What kind of friend doesn't call or talk or anything. I have other friends but this just makes me mad. What do I do when nothing is said. What do I do when my sister doesn't call why didn't she I did. I tried to keep her up to date. In my head I think it is selfish. She probably wanted to keep it to herself. Or she thinks I said to much or she think I can't handle it or she whatever........Whatever. That bothers me. I am happy she called mom. Maybe that is who needs it. I feel worthless. Where is that coming from? I probably can go for days and no one would notice I wasn't there. This is old stuff. Where is it coming from. Should I just shake it off and move on. It not like it was my child or parent or spouse. God I can't see help me. I thought I just wanted to be alone but really. I hate that I am nothing nothing nothing. Nothing Said. Who really cares what I think I don't care what I think. I think to much. I can't do any of this none none none help me help me help me.Where am I going to be when I die? What is important? Is this helping? I like that know one reads this blog but yet I publish it. That is weird