Maybe

Ok I understand why I am sad. I woke this morning with just a sadness. Not sure why......yes I have surgery but I am not afraid ....I am going to heaven sure bet. Yes they are cutting on me but really in and out surgery.....not taking out my heart just cancer. Well there you go Mel that's why your sad.....today after all the talking it becomes real. Today, that little sliver of hope that maybe the extremely smart doctors with all their millions of test are wrong, will be put to rest. Today cancer becomes real to me,maybe.