I quit

Wow had a great lunch at Olive Garden. Even had dessert ,I never have dessert. Then went grocery shopping with Dave......nice day except of course the appointment at the cancer center and the blood work for the surgery tomorrow. Cancer again seems to sneak into a perfectly fine moment and puts a big blob of #%<% right in the middle of it. I feel like I can't breathe one moment and laughing with Dave about pulling the plug if something happens another moment. This just seems crazyyyyyyyy. I can tell you this somethings just don't matter anymore. God, people and laughter that matters. How many things I get done in a day doesn't matter , if my hair looks good doesn't matter, what the scale says doesn't matter,who gets to do what doesn't matter . Friends that come to work to get you to go home because you have surgery tomorrow matter, friends that say I love you  matters, a husband that carries the bag of potatoes because you  have cancer matters, friends that pray with you matter, friends that say fork that cancer matter, family that call just because matter. Ok I will do this.