I ain't superwoman

Well how am I feeling today ,you might ask:
Physically: good, not too much pain and generally good energy. Went for a short walk around the block ( it is amazing I am happy with that considering in July of last year I was running 13 miles but I digress ). Overall considering I have had two surgeries in the last two weeks. I feel pretty good.
Mentally: today is a strong day. I hear Gods words of comfort in emails and also phone callers. He is blessing me
Emotional: well let's just say I have some anger. I wish it was the screaming, yelling kind (though Dave wouldn't like it) I wish I could just have a fit and get it out of my system but that isn't what I am dealing with. This anger is the slow brewing kind that seeps out at all the wrong times. I know it's there and I understand it but really it has no focus. I am not angry at God I have been at times in my past but not over this . I understand we live in a fallen world crappy stuff happens. I am not angry a people. Though sometimes it seems like it. I know we are all doing what we can. I want to be angry at cancer but really cancer is just cancer with a little c. I am angry that I can't just live my life like I always did. Love God, love people (some people) and work. Have a little fun and live. Now I got to take more care of me.....that is not what I want to do. I don't have no time to take care of me....really now I have to take care of me. That is probably the most frustrating thing....I have limits...really I realize I just didn't think I did. That's just funny. I ain't superwoman .......