Jesus freak

This is a hard blog to do but here it goes.....I went to the medical oncologist yesterday and basically he said I need to get a test of my tumor to see if I need chemo. Lets just say once again my plan and God plan collided. My tears last night were a mixture of frustration that this is not just done and sadness with chemo in the picture. I know that I can't plan or control this but it doesn't keep me from trying. I just got myself open to radiation now chemo is being looked at. Well what do I do with all of it. Give it to Jesus I know that is easy to say but really doing it is actually somewhat easy todo because really let's face the truth I don't have any other option. God is needed and is involved....so after a lot of tears and my hubby's heart felt prayers I am looking at the next 7days as a rest from cancer and a walk with Jesus. The test results will come back in 7-10 days. I like that.....I really getting to be a Jesus freak