My new normal

Tomorrow back to work but not back to normal. I've started my new normal now which means I need to deal with cancer treatments and take care of myself. This is surprisingly hard. I have always thought I had the tendency to be a little selfish. You know thinking about myself to much and my needs. This however is difference it is more about taking care of this vessel so God can use me to be light into the world(that sounds so Holy but really that is what God wants all of us to do). So now when I am tired I need to rest ,when I am hungry ,eat stuff that will nourish my body and exercise. Of course I like the last one but now I can't go crazy just move my body not try to run it to death.
Here is another rather surprising detail I want to not just move on from this. At first that is truly all I wanted to do but now I want to learn what God is teaching me through this my new normal. He is calling my name and speaking so sweetly to me I don't want to loose that and go back to the crowdy noisy world. I like this new normal today.
Another thing since I am just rambling(I wonder if I will reread these or just think they are to long) I believe my body is working very hard and it is amazing how it is protecting me and regenerating. God did a fine job creating this body. I am wonderfully and fearfully made :) thanks sis for telling me this .
One more thing I have so many people praying for me I am amazed . I am on everyone prayer list. That just feels good. A friend of my sister put me on a list where nuns are praying for me 24 hrs a day .Cathy said if I wake up in the middle of the night I would know someone is praying for me. That is very comforting. So there you go....my new normal.....I like this